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Definitions	[Dec. 30th, 2007\|04:20 pm]
Main Entry: de·pres·sion Pronunciation: di-'pre-sh&n, dE- Function: noun 1. a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked especially by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies. Main Entry: in·fe·ri·or Pronunciation: in-'fir-E-&r Function: adjective 1. of little or less importance, value, or merit. Main Entry: than·a·tol·o·gy Pronunciation: "tha-n&-'tä-l&-jE Function: noun Etymology: Greek thanatos + English -logy 1. the description or study of the phenomena of death and of psychological mechanisms for coping with them. Main Entry: hope Function: noun 1a : desire accompanied by expectation of or belief in fulfillment ; also : expectation of fulfillment or success b : someone or something on which hopes are centered c : something hoped for. Main Entry: cu·ri·os·i·ty Pronunciation: "kyur-E-'ä-s(&-)tE Function: noun 1 : desire to know: a : inquisitive interest in others' concerns. Main Entry: ca·thar·sis Pronunciation: kə-ˈthär-səs Function: noun Etymology: New Latin, from Greek katharsis, from kathairein to cleanse, purge, from katharos Date: circa 1775 1: purgation 2 a: purification or purgation of the emotions (as pity and fear) primarily through art b: a purification or purgation that brings about spiritual renewal or release from tension3: elimination of a complex by bringing it to consciousness and affording it expression. Main Entry: mu·ti·late Pronunciation: ˈmyü-tə-ˌlāt Function: transitive verb Etymology: Latin mutilatus, past participle of mutilare, from mutilus truncated, maimed Date: 1534 1 : to cut up or alter radically so as to make imperfect 2 : to cut off or permanently destroy a limb or essential part of : cripple. Main Entry: os·tra·cize Pronunciation: -?siz Function: transitive verb Inflected Form(s): -cized; -ciz·ing Etymology: Greek ostrakizein to banish by voting with potsherds, from ostrakon shell, potsherd – more at oyster Date: 1649 1 : to exile by ostracism 2 : to exclude from a group by common consent Main Entry: re·birth Pronunciation: (?)re-'b?rth, 're-? Function: noun Date: 1837 1 a: a new or second birth : metempsychosis b: spiritual regeneration Main Entry: re·cov·ery Pronunciation: ri-'k?-v?-re, -'k?v-re Function: noun Inflected Form(s): plural -er·ies Date: 15th century 1: the act, process, or an instance of recovering; especially : an economic upturn (as after a depression) 2: the process of combating a disorder (as alcoholism) or a real or perceived problem Main Entry: re·ject Pronunciation: ri-'jekt Function: transitive verb Etymology: Middle English, from Latin rejectus, past participle of reicere, from re- + jacere to throw -- more at JET 1a : to refuse to accept, consider, submit to, take for some purpose, or use b : to refuse to hear, receive, or admit : REBUFF, REPEL c : to refuse as lover or spouse 2 obsolete : to cast off Main Entry: scape·goat Pronunciation: 'skAp-"gOt Function: noun Etymology: scape; intended as translation of Hebrew 'azAzEl (probably name of a demon), as if 'Ez 'OzEl goat that departs--Leviticus 16:8(Authorized Version) 1a : one that bears the blame for others b : one that is the object of irrational hostility Main Entry: hate Pronunciation: 'hAt Function: noun Usage: often attributive Etymology: Middle English, from Old English hete; akin to Old High German haz hate, Greek kEdos care 1 a : intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger, or sense of injury b : extreme dislike or antipathy : LOATHING 2 : an object of hatred: a generation whose finest hate had been big business -- F. L. Paxson Main Entry: te·na·cious Pronunciation: t&-'nA-sh&s Function: adjective Etymology: Latin tenac-, tenax tending to hold fast, from tenEre to hold 1a : not easily pulled apart 2a : persistent in maintaining, adhering to, or seeking something valued or desired Main Entry: re·morse Pronunciation: ri-'mors Function: noun Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French remors, from Medieval Latin remorsus, from Late Latin, act of biting again, from Latin remordEre to bite again, from re- + mordEre to bite -- more at MORDANT 1 : a gnawing distress arising from a sense of guilt for past wrongs Main Entry: heliophobia Function: noun Etymology: Greek helios 'sun' 1. a fear of sunlight Main Entry: in·spi·ra·tion Pronunciation: "in(t)-sp&-'rA-sh&n, -(")spi- Function: noun 1 a : a divine influence or action on a person believed to qualify him or her to receive and communicate sacred revelation b : the action or power of moving the intellect or emotions c : the act of influencing or suggesting opinions "It is one of the most beautiful compensations of this life that no man can sincerely try to help another without helping himself." -Ralph Waldo Emerson Main Entry: fi·nal·i·ty Pronunciation: fI-'na-l&-tE, f&- Function: noun Inflected Form(s): plural -ties 1 a : the character or condition of being final , settled, irrevocable, or complete b : the condition of being at an ultimate point especially of development or authority 2 : something final; especially : a fundamental fact, action, or belief Main Entry: sup·port Pronunciation: s&-'port Function: transitive verb Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French supporter, from Late Latin supportare, from Latin, to transport, from sub- + portare to carry -- more at FARE 1 : to endure bravely or quietly : BEAR 2 a (1) : to promote the interests or cause of (2) : to uphold or defend as valid or right Main Entry: sal·va·tion Pronunciation: sal-'vA-sh&n Function: noun Etymology: Middle English salvacion, from Anglo-French, from Late Latin salvation-, salvatio, from salvare to save -- more at SAVE 1a : deliverance from the power and effects of sin b : the agent or means that effects salvation c Christian Science : the realization of the supremacy of infinite Mind over all bringing with it the destruction of the illusion of sin, sickness, and death 2: liberation from ignorance or illusion 3a : preservation from destruction or failure b : deliverance from danger or difficulty Main Entry: con·fused Pronunciation: -ˈfyüzd Function: adjective Date: 14th century 1a: being perplexed or disconcerted 1b: disoriented with regard to one's sense of time, place, or identity 2: indistinguishable 3: being disordered or mixed up Main Entry: love Pronunciation: 'l&v Function: noun Etymology: Middle English, from Old English lufu; akin to Old High German luba love, Old English lEof dear, Latin lubEre, libEre to please
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Insomnia.

[Nov. 30th, 2007|01:47 am]

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awake

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So I only relized not that long ago, how bad my insomnia is really getting.
I sit up most of the night, sleep a couple hours and get back up if im lucky, or I stay up for a few days, even on meds til I can just finally crash and at least rest my eyes.
It's getting kind of ridiculous.
My body's addicted to my meds, and they're starting not to help AGAIN.
but im so sick of changing meds, and then my body going through withdrawls.

I think last nights problem was not taking my meds, but still, I took anti-sickness pills that have sleep aids in them and i hardly slept, stuff that usually knocks me out!!

So, I think I'm going to have people over for like 2 days, and have them stay up as long as they can with me, like Abby and such, because i know she can tough it out with me... Until I crash, and im gonna do this a few times a month until my body gets used to sleep again!

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Turn ons/Offs	[Nov. 5th, 2007\|01:09 pm]
Turn ons/offs Write after each of these whether its a turn on or turn off for you in a guy Blonde hair: Doesn't really matter Brown hair: Doesn't really matter Red hair: Doesn't really matter Blue eyes: Turn On (if they're bright, or grey blue somtimes..) Green eyes: If they're bright, turn on Brown eyes: mmm. turn on Athletic: Eh.. Somtimes Skinny: Too skinny, Turn off Few extra pounds: No opinion Glasses: Turn on (if they look good) Hat: Depends on what the guy looks like in it. Good student: Eh, no opinion there Good at sports: Turn on.. (somtimes anyways) Dorky: Turn off (most of the time anyways) Listens to rock: Turn on Listens to country: Depends Listens to emo: Eh... Depends on the bands they listen to. Tough: Turn on Sensitive: Turn on Preppy: Turn off Skater: Turn on Well-dressed: Depends.. I like my boys a little grungy.. Slacker: turn off Good with computers: Hey a man good with computers is good for me!!! lol Plays guitar: Turn on Dances well: Turn on Lifts weights: Turn on (as long as he's not TOO bulky) Has a job: Turn on Writes poetry: Turn on Makes stupid jokes: Turn off
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(no subject)	[Nov. 5th, 2007\|01:02 pm]
my head hurts. really bad.. fuckin' migranes.. They suck!!!!! I got it while i was driving. Anyways, im hungry.. FOOD TIME!
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Alphabet Survey!!!

[Nov. 5th, 2007|01:01 pm]

<tr><td>Alphabet Survey!!! (more about me!) </td></tr><tr><td>

• A
Are you available?: Kinda (long story)
What is your age?: 19 (almost 20)

• B
Do you know anyone named Brian?: I know a few guys named brian
When is your birthday?: January 3rd

• C
What's your favorite candy? Reeses
What kind of car do you have?: Ford Aspire
Who do you have a crush on? Uh, still wouldn't call it a crush! I love robert!!!!

• D
Do you daydream?:Somtimes, but i think i have adhd or add or somthing, because i cant focus ever!!!
What's your favorite kind of dog? Chiuhuha..

• E
Have you ever been in the emergency room?:Yeah, many many times
Ever pet an elephant?:Yep

• F
Do you use fly swatters?: When i have them
is there a fan in your room?: No, we have air conditioning

• G
Do you chew gum?:Yeah
do you like gory movies? Somtimes:

• H
How are you? Im good, exspecially after the good news i got today!!! =]

What's your height?:
What color is your hair? Black

• I
Have you ever ice skated?: Yes
Ever been in an igloo?: No not a real one

• J
Favorite Jelly Bean?: Uhhhh. Strawberry
Do you wear jewelry?: Somtimes, I wear my ring alot of the time, but its kinda broken where they resized it so i cant wear it as much.cuz it cuts into my finger.. and i wear necklaces somtimes!

•K
Who do you want to kill?: No one at the moment.
Have you ever flown a kite?: Yeah
Do you think kangaroos are cute?: Yessss

•L
Are you laid back?: Most of the time, but I'm outgoing too..
Lions or Tigers?: Tigers
do you like black licorice ?: No

• M
Favorite store at the mall?: Zumies, HT, or Claires (Anything I can wear, I will buy though)
Favorite movie?: Fight Club

•N
Do you have a nickname?: Frankie
Do you prefer night or day? Night

• O
Are you an only child?: Yes
Do you like the color orange?: yes, it remindes me of halloween. =]

• P
Do you know anyone named Penelope?: Nope

• Q
Have you ever eaten Quail?: Nope

• R
Do you think you're always right? No...
Do you watch reality TV?: Yes

• S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: Sun, but i love dancing in the rain. =]

Do you like snow?: Depends, it's pretty to look at, but it's too cold!!!

• T
What time is it?: 12:59

What time did you wake up?: 7:30

• U
Can you ride a unicycle?:no

• V
Did you ever watch VeggieTales?: FUCK YES lol

• W
What's your worst habit?: Repeating things.. [I forget who i tell things to and who i don't]
What do you want right now?: FOOD

• X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: Yes, I've had tons.
Ever used a Xerox machine?: Yeah

• Y
Do you like the color yellow?: Its bright.. but yeah..
What year were you born in?: 1988
Do you yell when you're angry?: yeah

• Z
Do you believe in the zodiac?: Yeah for the most part

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(no subject)	[Nov. 3rd, 2007\|11:39 pm]
Does your heart ever stop hurting?
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(no subject)	[Oct. 27th, 2007\|11:11 am]
Im done. I have no family no friends. and no life. no where to go.. and my mom doesnt want me here.. so im fucked
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(no subject)

[Oct. 26th, 2007|01:44 am]

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I'm going through alot of changes in my life right now.
for one being single again.
for two, lost my best friend... but whatever.
and three im back on a job hunt starting next week.

im working my ass off in school and i swear its getting me no where, im pulling an all nighter doiing vocab and essays..
but im almost to crashing point.. (sure i can make it til 3 or 4 though)
I have a bit of math to catch up on too this evening before i go to sleep
dont think im gonna go to classes in the morning because im pulling this but w/e.. at least im getting the work done.

I got a concussion, walls like to attack!!!
nice bruise forming on my forehead and a nice egg sized lump.
I spent 3 1/2 hours in the ER today, because i was sick from it and didnt even see the doctor so i gave up and left.
Fuckers..

Anyways I should get back to my essay.. TATA

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(no subject)	[Sep. 25th, 2007\|11:05 pm]
So I've been like hella sick for the last 3 days, running fevers, having chills from the inside out and so on and so fourth. Mom thinks I have a kidney infection cuz I've been complaining of a pain for a couple days in my back, but more recently over my kidney area. It's really gay, because if I do have one, they don't go away that quickly with me and I hope to god I dont fall behind in school. I'm doing so good this year so far, that it would really suck if I got even more sick and had to miss more than I already have to get better. I'm pushing myself tommorow to go to most of my classes depending on how much sleep I get this evening.. Although I didn't get that much last night and got up early this morning and felt quite refreshed. Anyways, this week is homecoming week at EHS, and Abby is trying to convince me to come to the game and such on Friday night, not sure if I'm going to go or not. I had told her I would go, but still. I also told April that I'd go. So, I might be obligated to go. Unless I'm still feeling like shit, then I'll be in bed all night on Friday night and not go anywhere. I had a U.A. this afternoon to verify if I have an infection or not, and I'm hoping its just like some flu thing, or I don't know a very minor infection because I really don't want to deal with anti-biotics and bedrest and all that crap again this year, I just want to lead a normal fucking life already. Obviously being sick this weekeend and this week isnt from stress, because I don't feel stressed in the least bit right now infact I feel the most stress free I have in the last few months in the last couple days... That's an accomplishment at least. BUT I'm not going to get my hopes up on anything right now, because I'm still struggling with court coming up and I won't know if I have a public defender or not, until the last minute apparently? That's really screwed up, they should at least tell you ahead of time so if you don't get one you can go hire your own lawyer... GAY.. anyways that's enough ranting for this evening, im gonna go lay down and hope to drift off to sleep here shortly. <3Frankie
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(no subject)	[Sep. 22nd, 2007\|08:05 pm]
AH I drove myself up the wall today. tonight better be worth it. Im sure it will be. I love robert. I dont think I say that enough!
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(no subject)	[Sep. 22nd, 2007\|12:27 pm]
IM wracking my brain really bad right now seriously.. because im so frusterated that I forgot to ask a simple question last night when I had the chance. and now I dont know a time for my plans tonight because no one can find him... WHERE DID HE GO!?!?
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(no subject)	[Sep. 19th, 2007\|09:52 pm]
well i got my internet back at home which is a plus.. and things went a little better in life today, other than the fact that my hampster mr. wiggles died.
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(no subject)	[Sep. 17th, 2007\|01:57 pm]
my life really sucks right now. I dont know if it can get any worse, but maybe it can. Im so lonely as of lately... and my mom's mood isnt helping.
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(no subject)	[Aug. 25th, 2007\|05:30 pm]
So finally an update. My dad's just generally being an asshole, since my mom is taking advantage of the divorce now and getting what she deserves I don't get shit for school, why I even bothered re-enrolling and trying again I will never know. Robert's gone in Michigan til tommorow night because his grandma died, and I miss him terribly already. My great grandma's memorial was today, and I found out that I do have some common intrests with some of the people I'm related to, so that was kinda cool. Warped tour was a blast, as always more the camping this year than the concert though.. All night party's and rioting.. Good time to me. Anyways thats about as good as this update's gonna get because I just took the dogs on a walk and Im exhausted.. <3
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(no subject)	[Aug. 4th, 2007\|10:39 pm]
He wont come home because of me. I fucked up, and I know he's pissed but he cant just avoid me all fucking night. He told me he'd get online, and here I am STILL WAITING after he said he'd get on there right away. FUCKING LIES.. and im sick of lies... And im sick of always being the one who has to hurt.
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(no subject)	[Jul. 28th, 2007\|09:44 pm]
I feel so lonely. And I'm so sick of that feeling.
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family Sucks.	[Jul. 28th, 2007\|06:21 pm]
Most of my family never make me feel welcome when I'm around them, and it's greatly irritating and im fucking sick of my dad ignoring me for his ugly ass girlfriend. (which by the way, she looks like a man..) And.. I'm just really irritated maybe going to that family reunion was the biggest mistake I could've made lately. Oh well I'm going with Jessyka and my baby to Texas in a couple weeks. Driving. Roadtrip, should be fun.
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(no subject)	[Jul. 28th, 2007\|12:17 pm]
Dreading my family reunion today, only because of my dad's girlfriend.
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Poetry

[Jul. 25th, 2007|12:30 pm]

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written 2/23/06

I'm at a loss of words
Speechless
and unforgiving
It's like death
taking it's toll
and another heart breaking,
everything scattered
shattered to peices.
And those pleading eyes,
burning in your skin.
The only barrier you have
from letting it all in.
And when everyone lets go
and you drop my head
turn to my face
I wish I could repremand.
One day my broken heart will mend,
But until then, can't we just pretend?

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(no subject)	[Jul. 24th, 2007\|08:17 am]
I appologize so much. But the truth is, most of the time I DO NOTHING WRONG. so why should I always be the one appologizing? I shouldn't. And I'm sick of it, so unless I actually realize whatever I do to you is wrong. For a long time, people won't hear the words I'm sorry. Exspecially you people I only know over the internet, that are trying to drag me into your drama. Yes, you're probably stalking this page right now and reading this, because although you don't know me, you pretend you do and you're trying to figure out every detail of my life... But this is the internet, like I'm really going to post my most important thoughts and feelings down here so everyone can use them against me. No... Stop stalking my myspace and my livejournal because I'm g'damn sick of it. I'm sick of you, and I'm sick of your creepy friends that keep IMing me. GO AWAY ALREADY. Now that I'm done ranting about that... I'm in a better mood don't feel like ripping people apart anymore. I let out all my pent up agression last night. I have to be away from Robert for the most part tonight, so I'll probably just sleep until he gets home or go with him or somthing of the sort. I don't know, I'm tired, I'm annoyed from bad dreams about my boyfriend, and most of all IM SICK AND TIRED OF DUMB PEOPLE... That will never change..
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